Tuesday, October 9, 2012

This has been my favorite quote for the last few years.

"We know that on some level Jesus experienced the totality of mortal existence in Gethsemane. It's our faith that he experienced everything - absolutely everything. Sometimes we don't think through the implications of that belief. We talk in great generalities about the sins of all humankind, about the suffering of the entire human family. But we don't experience pain in generalities. We experience it individually. That means Jesus knows what it felt like when your mother died of cancer - how it was for your mother, how it still is for you. He knows what it felt like to lose the student-body election. He knows that moment when the brakes locked, and the car started to skid. He experienced the slave ship sailing from Ghana toward Virginia. He experienced napalm in Vietnam. He knows about drug addiction and alcoholism. There is nothing you have experienced as a woman that he does not also know and recognize. On a profound level, he understands about pregnancy and giving birth. He knows about PMS and cramps and menopause. He understands about rape and infertility and abortion. His last recorded words to his disciples were, 'And lo, I am with you always even unto the end of the world." (Matthew 28:20) What does that mean? It means he understands your mother-pain when your five-year-old leaves for kindergarten, when a bully picks on your fifth-grader, when your daughter calls to say that the new baby has Downs syndrome. He knows your mother-rage when a trusted babysitter sexually abuses your two-year-old, when someone gives your thirteen-year-old drugs, when someone seduces your seventeen-year-old. He knows all that. He's been there. He's been lower than that."
 -Chieko N. Okazaki
"Lighten Up!" p.175

 I love it because I always seem to think my situation is unique to me and nobody else gets it. But this reminds me that while Jesus suffered for the whole world, he also suffered for every little thing about Robin Lesa Bell. Stressing about my chemistry grade, wondering if things in life will ever come together, the emotions of dating or the heartache of a break-up, my family dynamics, personal insecurities, loneliness, my health... Even silly things that matter only to me and no one else. I don't understand how it all works, but I know Jesus is our advocate with our loving Father. And THANK GOODNESS! :)

1 comment:

Kimaree said...

I love this quote Robin. Thanks so much for sharing it. It's hard to fathom the infinite atonement, let alone the intimate atonement. It's talked about on a general level, yet it is so incredibly personal as well. Anyways, I love you Robs!